I guess you could say I'm confused...

Um YEAH!!!!

I've never been so confused in my life.

And I'm going to go ahead and tell you that it has to do with Guys.

Of course I end up liking more than one person at one time.

But here's the kicker...I think they may like me back.

I'm super confused. I don't want to say any more that they are all totally different. They all appeal to a certain side of my personality that the other can't quite reach. And that One of the I've like since I was 13 or 14(Stupid Junior High/High school crush), One I've liked for a little over two years now, and the last I've only just recently met about 4 weeks ago, but for some reason I've felt like I've connected with, and feel comfortable around him.

I don't know what to do. The one I've liked forever I don't want to date just because I know he isn't really boyfriend Material. The one I've liked ofr about two years, I'm afraid to tell. I'm afraid of ruining a friendship, and I see him quite often so that would just make it awkward if he ended up not liking me. And the guy I just met...well let's just say, he isn't weirded out or freaked out about me being a touchy feely person(i.e. resting my arm on his leg or his Shoulder) I even told him that I was sorry about that cause I tend to do that and if it bothered him for him to tell me to stop, but he said that he didn't mind. I don't want to say to much more, just in case he reads this or finds it.

On the other hand I really shouldn't post this, but I just had to get it off my chest, because if I don't I just feel like I won't be able to sleep tonight!

Other than that, I just got done recording show #4 for thenewrock.com podcast!!! I think this week was way better. We still are learning things, and still working the kinks, but we are starting to find our stride. It's a fun project, and I'm grateful that I'm able to be a part of it. It's something that I've been wanting to do, but been to scared to do so.

My life as of right now!!!

So I haven't posted a blog in a week or so. I have just been busy...well to my standards at least.

I have just been searching for independent bands that I can play on my radio show. I thought that everyone I send an email to would reject me like that, but I've had a lot of bands allow me to play their music on my show. I'm excited, because it means that I can do what I wanted to do with it in the first place. One, I can find new music that I can enjoy, and two I can promote those bands that I think deserve to get their name out there. I just feel like this project was meant to happen, maybe as a sign to what I should do with my life.

Something has happened lately. I am now also a part of a podcast at Thenewrock.com. I was originally just a contributor, but one of the guys that was co-host has not shown the past two weeks, Jason had to make a decision and he asked me if I wanted to be co-host. He figures why not because I am passionate about music and I know a lot about rock music. I'm just excited that all of this has happened in such a short amount of time.

To be quite honest, I've been looking at podcasting for a while, and before that I've wanted to do something with radio. I mean in 7th or 8th grade, I saw this thing in a Toys-R-Us paper where you could have a radio brodcast within 50 yards of where you were. I wanted it so bad!!! I even have a paper of podcasting sites, and a list of equipment that I could get for cheap. So it must be destiny that all this stuff has happened.

It gets even better.

Jason told me that we might even get to interview bands, because he has conncetions. He told me to get ready cause we might get big! I'm excited like ten fold!!!

I'm just so excited to see what God has planned for me next.

Well, I have to go research for tonight. We are recording show 3 of the podcast. So listen out for it Tomorrow!

So what's been going on in my world lately.

So I haven't posted a blog in a few weeks, so I thought I might want to catch you all up with what's going on.

I went to Awanita this past Monday-Wednesday to help paint the bathrooms in the staff house. they really needed it because the ceilings were yellow colored, and the walls just were that great of a color, so I went to go help Angie. Considering what I would be doing if I was at home, it was pretty fun. I love to paint, so it was not work to me.

I recently started a radio show on blogtalkradio.com I find it to be really fun. I've already recorded two shows, and had a pretty good crowd. I had 11 live listeners on my first show(Considering I didn't tell a soul I was doing it, that's not a bad turnout.), and 13 live listeners my second show. They leave an archive of the show, so if you missed it you can go and listen to it, or you can download it and take with you. I think I have found my calling. I find it to be very fun, and I get to do what I love to do, and that is listening to music. Not only that I get to promote those bands that I love!!! I love being on street teams for bands because it's a way to get word out on bands, but i think this is way better! Want to go listen to my shows? Just go to blogtalkradio.com/bandgirlcg and just press play on either archived show. Or you could just tune in every Thursday at 6pm est, and listen to me live.