pretty much what I said over at Cult Vault...

So this weekend was a great one...for the most part. Saturday I got my Hank Green Cd "So Jokes" in the mail, and I took it to Jason's house so That I could open, and look at it while we record the podcast. I take the cd out of the sleeve, and the cd is cracked!!! I was so upset and sad. I had been waiting for it for three weeks, so that was kind of disappointing. I just now sent an email over to the guys at DFTBA Records, so hopefully I can send it back in and get a replacement.

Recording for this weeks show was way better than last weeks show. I mean I didn't speak my mind much last week. I figured out why. I speak much better, and speak more if there are less people. See Jason and I normally try and record as much as possible before Brandon and Tyler come because to be quite honest, we get so distracted when they arrive(It's more me getting distracted than Jason). Anyway, I also speak less when they arrive because I don't speak very well when there is more than one person listening to me. I can do the whole radio thing because I can't see who I'm speaking too. Now couple the getting distracted thing with my inability to speak in front of multiple people, and add that to the fact I like Brandon. I get nervous speaking around him, and I pretty much have to change my persona to be able to hide the nervousness. He's a great guy though. I sent him a message on Facebook asking him if he liked me at all. I'm starting to regret that now. I mean I'd like to know now before I get too emotionally attached, but at the same time I don't want to ruin a friendship that could be by asking such a stupid question. I feel like I'm repeating history a bit. Only a few people would understand what I'm saying.

Oh well I get paranoid way to much and I think everything that could go wrong will go wrong.

Anyway. Sunday was church of course. After the late service was over, Some of the members of the youth choir got together to go out to eat at Wendy's, and go to the grocery store to get supplies for the His Song White Out Party(His Song is the name of the youth Choir.) It was pretty fun. after we got the supplies we went back to the church to decorate the multi-purpose room. Just hanging out and getting ready for this party I figured out that I'm more of a role model to these kids then I actually realized. The kids that actually stayed to help are pretty much the youngest in the group(Three of them in 6th grade, one in 8th grade and one in 9th grade.) I need to be a better role model, and right now I feel like I'm not. It's time for me to be the person I want to be, and the person that most people know me as.

other than that, I just found this video, and it mixes two of my favorite songs ever. Mr Ozio's "Flatbeat", and Missy Elliot's "Gossip Folks". It's pretty narly!!! I like it.



Have a great night everyone

*Sigh*

So Lately has been quite boring, so I'm very thankful for those times I get to leave my house and hang out with cool friends.

Saturday nights are always a blast hanging out with Jason, Todd, and Tyler recording the podcast and just talking about random things!!! We played Scrabble in what I think was my most humiliating loss ever!!! Normally I'm spot on and really good(Unless I'm playing against Harrison), and at the very least get third place, but I was not so lucky. I got to many repeating letters that I could never make a decent word. It was like that one time at the scrabble club when I got pretty much all I's and one other letter. Yeah I was that unlucky. Lately when I play I score over a hundred before the game is over, but I only scored 50 something!!! Harrison is probably going to be ashamed, though I doubt he'd read this. Besides my horrific defeat, I had fun. I also left the recording even more confused than I already was. I guess that's what happens when I let myself get emotionally involved with someone.

Another time I enjoy getting out of the house is when I go to Church. I get to learn more in an environment that I feel safe in. I also get an opportunity to be a worship leader when I play in the orchestra. And to top off all that, I get to hang out with friends that make me feel like I matter. Jennifer, Killian, Kemper, Skank, Megan, and everyone else are true friends, and I know I can trust them!!!

Oh and I guess it's not much a shocker, but I got my Hair cut Sunday. I needed it like crazy, and I like it a lot. It was getting long, and to be quite honest I did not want to get it cut, but it was in bad shape and it needed the dead ends cut off. Now I can grow it out and it be longer than before!!!

That's pretty much it!!!

Much love
~Alicia~

I guess you could say I'm confused...

Um YEAH!!!!

I've never been so confused in my life.

And I'm going to go ahead and tell you that it has to do with Guys.

Of course I end up liking more than one person at one time.

But here's the kicker...I think they may like me back.

I'm super confused. I don't want to say any more that they are all totally different. They all appeal to a certain side of my personality that the other can't quite reach. And that One of the I've like since I was 13 or 14(Stupid Junior High/High school crush), One I've liked for a little over two years now, and the last I've only just recently met about 4 weeks ago, but for some reason I've felt like I've connected with, and feel comfortable around him.

I don't know what to do. The one I've liked forever I don't want to date just because I know he isn't really boyfriend Material. The one I've liked ofr about two years, I'm afraid to tell. I'm afraid of ruining a friendship, and I see him quite often so that would just make it awkward if he ended up not liking me. And the guy I just met...well let's just say, he isn't weirded out or freaked out about me being a touchy feely person(i.e. resting my arm on his leg or his Shoulder) I even told him that I was sorry about that cause I tend to do that and if it bothered him for him to tell me to stop, but he said that he didn't mind. I don't want to say to much more, just in case he reads this or finds it.

On the other hand I really shouldn't post this, but I just had to get it off my chest, because if I don't I just feel like I won't be able to sleep tonight!

Other than that, I just got done recording show #4 for thenewrock.com podcast!!! I think this week was way better. We still are learning things, and still working the kinks, but we are starting to find our stride. It's a fun project, and I'm grateful that I'm able to be a part of it. It's something that I've been wanting to do, but been to scared to do so.

My life as of right now!!!

So I haven't posted a blog in a week or so. I have just been busy...well to my standards at least.

I have just been searching for independent bands that I can play on my radio show. I thought that everyone I send an email to would reject me like that, but I've had a lot of bands allow me to play their music on my show. I'm excited, because it means that I can do what I wanted to do with it in the first place. One, I can find new music that I can enjoy, and two I can promote those bands that I think deserve to get their name out there. I just feel like this project was meant to happen, maybe as a sign to what I should do with my life.

Something has happened lately. I am now also a part of a podcast at Thenewrock.com. I was originally just a contributor, but one of the guys that was co-host has not shown the past two weeks, Jason had to make a decision and he asked me if I wanted to be co-host. He figures why not because I am passionate about music and I know a lot about rock music. I'm just excited that all of this has happened in such a short amount of time.

To be quite honest, I've been looking at podcasting for a while, and before that I've wanted to do something with radio. I mean in 7th or 8th grade, I saw this thing in a Toys-R-Us paper where you could have a radio brodcast within 50 yards of where you were. I wanted it so bad!!! I even have a paper of podcasting sites, and a list of equipment that I could get for cheap. So it must be destiny that all this stuff has happened.

It gets even better.

Jason told me that we might even get to interview bands, because he has conncetions. He told me to get ready cause we might get big! I'm excited like ten fold!!!

I'm just so excited to see what God has planned for me next.

Well, I have to go research for tonight. We are recording show 3 of the podcast. So listen out for it Tomorrow!

So what's been going on in my world lately.

So I haven't posted a blog in a few weeks, so I thought I might want to catch you all up with what's going on.

I went to Awanita this past Monday-Wednesday to help paint the bathrooms in the staff house. they really needed it because the ceilings were yellow colored, and the walls just were that great of a color, so I went to go help Angie. Considering what I would be doing if I was at home, it was pretty fun. I love to paint, so it was not work to me.

I recently started a radio show on blogtalkradio.com I find it to be really fun. I've already recorded two shows, and had a pretty good crowd. I had 11 live listeners on my first show(Considering I didn't tell a soul I was doing it, that's not a bad turnout.), and 13 live listeners my second show. They leave an archive of the show, so if you missed it you can go and listen to it, or you can download it and take with you. I think I have found my calling. I find it to be very fun, and I get to do what I love to do, and that is listening to music. Not only that I get to promote those bands that I love!!! I love being on street teams for bands because it's a way to get word out on bands, but i think this is way better! Want to go listen to my shows? Just go to blogtalkradio.com/bandgirlcg and just press play on either archived show. Or you could just tune in every Thursday at 6pm est, and listen to me live.