So quite a lot has happened since the end of April.
I went to Misti-Con, and it was fantastic!!! It was my 5th Harry Potter Con, and so far it is my absolute favorite con! I don't know if it was because I made so many amazing friends, and got to catch up with old ones (Which I do at every con really), or if it was for the fact that it was a day longer than all the other cons. Either way was unforgettable, and I can not wait for Misti-Con 2015!
A week after I returned from Misti-Con, I broke off my relationship with Patrick. I felt really bad for haing to do it, but I felt like in order for me to figure out what the hell I was suppose to do with my life, I needed to break out of my normal routine. Our relationship to me felt like a routine that I just didn't want to break. I didn't feel like I could go do anything that I wanted to because I felt like it would make him unhappy. He always wanted me there, and as much as I thought I did too, I started to be more and more unhappy with myself, and that is not healthy. I feel like the bad guy. I broke his heart. I didn't want to, but it was for the sake of finding myself and my future path. Gosh, I feel like a bitch.
Since then, I have hung out with friends I haven't gotten to hang out with in over a year, and go to shows whenever I want. I went to a movie documentary night at The Garaj Mahal two days after I did the deed, and one of the movies that was playing was "Finding Joe". Talk about things that come at you at the most perfect time! The documentary is basically explaining Joseph Campbell's Hero's Circle which is used in basically any story that you read in books or watch on the big screen that involves a hero type. It takes the hero's circle and compares it to real life because basically in order to find our bliss, the one thing in life that makes us unforgivably happy, we have to go through the hero's circle in order to obtain it. They kept saying over and over again that the path to finding your bliss most of the time happens after a bad event whether it be a divorce, break up, death, etc. This movie hit me SO HARD, that I was crying because it is what I needed to hear that the exact right time! Because of that movie, I am on a quest to find my bliss no matter how far or near it may be.
I went to a couple of other things at the Garaj Mahal. I went to another movie night that showed a documentary about girls in punk rock, which was awesome! I went to the really really free market, which I ended up nerding out with a couple of the guys talking about all kinds of cool subjects (Harry Potter and Doctor Who included), I got a couple of cool things including books, a pair of awesome heels that fit, and a skirt which I want to re-purpose into something for cosplay. I also was taught a couple of poi lessons by Tim (Who is really the coolest and nicest guy ever!), and I got to spin my rifle a little bit as well.
I started spinning my rifle and flag again. I forgot how much I miss just spin my frustrations out. It is so therapeutic. I doubt I will ever do a drum corp anytime soon, but I would love to do one in the near future, so I have to train my muscles up again if I ever decide to go for it.
On the 10th of June, I decided to follow a ten plus year dream of mine. I joined a roller derby team. I am not that great. I knew coming into it I would have to relearn how to balance on skates, I would have to learn to fall, and that I would be sucktastic when I went into the building. With all of that said, I am having the time of my life. It is so much fun being on skates again, and I feel like I have found something that I really enjoy doing. It is a big thing for me to say that I am not the best in the room, and be perfectly okay with it. And it's not like I am going to suck forever! I will push myself to get better and improve, and I will be the best that I can be! Now let's just hope that I do not fall on my ass again. I don't know if I will be able to survive another fall like that again. haha
The last major thing that has happened in my life since is I went to an event called Mochi Day which was a day to celebrate Anime and video games, and I did something that I totally did not expect to happen what-so-ever... I met a guy. Why the universe wants to work this way, I don't know, but it happened, and I'm not upset about it. Mochi Day happened on the 15th (Which is a week and a day ago from this blog post.). I just went to take lots of pictures in hopes of building up my portfolio, buy some awesome nerd merch (Which so totally happened), and make some friends because I love making new friends. His name is Dado (That's his nickname.) He was one of the first people to talk to me when I entered the building, and throughout the day we had multiple conversations, and we just clicked. I took pictures of him trolling people, and we just hung out. He is very sweet, and quite the gentleman. I was very shocked when he asked me out because I am not used to guys asking me out in person. In the past couple of years, I have only had guys ask me out online. It was very refreshing to have that happen for once. We had our first date Tuesday, and it was amazing. I feel like we have a lot in common, and that we connect. I am excited to see how this relationship works out. We have our second date tomorrow, and I am super stoked!!!
So that is basically is it from me for now.
I love you all, and I hope you all are having a great day!!!
Best wishes, and DFTBA!