Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Nanowrimo and turning 21.

I am participating in Nanowrimo, or National Novel Writing Month. It's where you try and write a 50,000 word novel in the month of November. On day three I have 5,691 words, and I'm still writing. I feel like it's going really good so far. I also realized with the way my story is going, I can incorporate a story I started writing last year. I didn't plan that out at all, so that really blew my mind.

Next Monday I turn 21. Time for me to go out and get drunk? WRONG!!! I just decided yesterday that for the year I am 21 I am going to do various challenges, and film them to share with the world. I think it will be quite interesting, and would definitely keep me from being bored all the time. They will range from Yearly, monthly, and weekly challenges. Every month will have a specific challenge that I have to complete. I'm still figuring it out, and will keep you informed. Tomorrow I'm filming a video to explain it more in detail. I can't wait!

Other than that, I've been making videos for a collab channel I joined two weeks ago, Nerdfightercollab. The people in it are super cool. Brain Eclipse hasn't really posted videos since we all talk through skype and facebook. We still post videos from time to time, but not regularly.
I also going to be apart of one more collab channel. We are still working with the info, but I think we have come up with the channel name "7 Nerds-A-Plenty" (Awesome right. I came up with the name! hehe) I'm excited to see how that goes. Especially since it's more of a worldly group. Two of us are from America, 3 from Canada, one from the United Kingdom, and the one who came up with the idea is from New Zealand. It's super cool!!!

Well, I think I'm going to go write some more for Nanowrimo so I won't get behind.

Best Wishes!!!




Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Blarg to the tenth degree.

I am in the mood to blog today so I decided I would.

I have been in such a weird mood today.

It's one of mood's where you're happy, but then you're in a state of panic, and then back to happy.

I guess I am just so worried about finding a job, and moving on with my life that is putting in the state of panic. It's one of the weirdest feelings I've ever had.

You know what is awesome? Japanese pop music. I have been listening to it for the past two weeks. It all stems from watching Human Tetris (The Japanese game show where the people have to try and fit through a hole in the wall, or get pushed off the platform into water). In the related videos box, it had a video that caught my interest. It was a Japanese fitness video with the catchiest J-pop song. After that one was finished, I went looking for more. I found something that made me so happy and so sad at the same time.

This video is the dance routine to the song Renai Revolution 21. It may seem trivial to you, but I've been listening to that song since tenth grade. I never knew the name to it, and I had no idea who sung it. My friend Sophia gave me a cd with the song on it. She was a foreign exchange student from Korea. Every time I hear the song I think of her, and how great of a friend she was. It just made my week.

I went to Awanita this weekend. Cassen, Steven, Tim, Ashley, and Alex were there. Tiffany came up Saturday, and so did Lauren and a guy named Ian. Ian was sort of annoying, but I didn't let that damper my happiness. It was a beautiful weekend. It wasn't rainy for once! Don't get me wrong I love the rain, but when I want to be outside, I'd prefer that it is sunny.

I got some pretty good shots this weekend.

I also film a bunch, and will be making a video of that soon.

*(For a side note I just tried to spell soon soong. haha)*

Anyway, Yesterday I was watching "The Women" with my mom, and I got inspiration from that movie.
There is one scene where Meg Ryan's Character tries to find herself, and she goes around and takes photo's of random things. I want to do that!!! So when I get a chance, I'm going to go around downtown Easley (At Least to Start off), and photography random things. I'm also going to film things as well. Yay for Inspiration!!!

Well I'm going to to get ready for church. I haven't been to church in two weeks. I need to learn to call people and tell them I'm going to be gone or something lol.

Friday, October 9, 2009

I am a Fag Hag...

...It's true.

I'm also watching Margaret Cho. lol.

So I told you in my last blog that I'd post my first video from my new youtube channel.

I've been coming up with many ideas for videos. I'm excited for what's to come.

I have also been applying to jobs like crazy. This week Applebee's and Bi-lo.

I need to call Staples, CVS, and Pizza Hut to see if they received my application, and have processed it.

Tomorrow might be the BHP marching Competition. The time is pending because of chance of rain, so I have no idea when it starts or even if they are going to have it. I really hope it doesn't rain.

I'm thinking about applying for Tri County for fall of 2010, or spring 2011 since they are building a Campus in Easley. It's a good step for me in furthering my education. I just really hope they have a photography class, or some type of graphics media.

Anyway. That's pretty much it.

I never have anything to say any more.


Best Wishes!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

My feet are cold.

That has nothing to do with what I'm blogging about.

I have completely neglected this blog.

I can't blame it on being busy. I haven't been busy. I haven't been up to anything. I have just been plain lazy!!!

So I have a few updates.

1: I am now a member of the Brain eclipse video collab channel on youtube. I am Saturday. Nobody has posted since I joined though. lol. I'm sure it's only temporary.

2: With the brain Eclipse crew, we have thoroughly discussed going to Infinitus 2010. Now for those of you who don't know Infinitus is a Harry Potter Conference. It will be held from July 15-18 at the Wizarding World Of Harry Potter in Orlando, Florida. The Wizarding World Of Harry Potter is Universal Studios newest theme park, and it will be so awesome. I'm truly excited about going, and I'm even more excited about meeting the Brain Eclipse crew as we head down there together. :)

3: I have started writing video ideas. I have been wanting to get back into making vlogs, and music videos. A lot of ideas have been storming into my brain, and I just need to get them out. I'll post the videos up once they are uploaded.

I have applied to three jobs; Pizza Hut, Staples, and CVS. In a week, I'm going to start calling them and asking how my application is going. I really need a job.

My brother told me that our friend, Alan, is looking for another job. He currently works at the movie theater with my brother. Now I know this sounds mean, but I hope he finds another job. If he gets another job, then he's going to quit the Theater job, and Eric is going to ask the manager to interview me for a job there. Now as much as I don't want to work with my brother (And since he is management, he'll be over what I do), I really need a job. I need something that pays, and if that means getting orders from my brother then so be it.

I need a car. For two reasons. One, I'm tired of having to ask my mother and other people for a ride places, and two because I need to go visit my friends.
Most of my friends are in college, and I want to be able to go visit them. I have a few friends (Thanks to Awanita) that don't live anywhere near me. I need to be able to go visit them on a weekend or something.
I want to be able to drive when I need to when Cassen and I go on that road trip that we want to go on soon. Let's face it I don't want my brother having to drive the entire time!!!

I've been obsessed with Doctor Who and reading lately. I really don't need to give an explanation on either one of those because they are both freaking awesome!!!

That's pretty much it.

Hopefully the next time you see a blog from me, it will include a video from me. :)



P.S. I forgot to mention that I've been dating Casey for two months now!!! I'm excited. I've never been in a relationship for that long before. It's weird for me.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

So life after Awanita is...


Going straight from working everyday to doing nothing everyday is not fun. Though I have been hanging out with Casey alot.

Last Thursday I went with Kathryn to the Easley Band camp, and I thought it was awesome!!! They have come along really well, and I'm excited to go to the competitions!!!

There is another reason why I'm excited to go to the competitions.

Back at Workcrew weekend I met a girl named Mary Ogle. We didn't talk much then, but she came up this summer to volunteer for a week.

We became really great friends!!! We have a lot in common. She's in the Wren Marching band so I told her that I would yell at her if I ever was at the same competition as her.

That is going to be extremely awkward though. Considering that Wren and Easley are major rivals. I don't know. It will be weird being in the Easley Crowd and cheering for someone in Wren!!! lol.

I Don't care!!! I'll do it anyway!!!

Also someone I can't wait to go visit! My Twin!!!

Briana Riley

I don't know when I'll get to visit her, but if she hears of a show that I might be interested in, I will definitely try and go with her.


I got to Hang out with Casey yesterday and it was great!!!

I met his dad, and we saw G.I.Joe. Then we took his dad home which was like a 45 minutes to and 45 minuets from Anderson. Then we dropped by Best Buy where I bought Garden State, The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles box set. Casey wanted to show me this comic book store called Planet Comics. It was great!!!

Casey was dumb enough to show me that they had Doctor Who books. lol. So I splurged and bought two of them. lol. Then we headed to my house. I feel sorry for Casey because he's pretty much been on the road all day.

He called me at about 9:30 in the morning. Got to my house at about 10 ish. Then we headed out at 11:30 and we didn't get back to my house till about 6:30.

We watched Dr Horrible's Sing-Along Blog, and half of the Reel Big Fish DVD that I got in the mail, and he headed home at about 9.

So yeah yesterday was a fantastic day just because I got to be with Casey!!! I like him a lot!!!


Bama(Rebecca) posted a picture on Facebook that I've been wanting for a while now!!!

Yeah I missed all three of them all summer!!! I wish they were apart of the summer staff this year.

I'm gonna go. I am going to be making a video of my summer, so be looking out for it!!!

Much love


Friday, August 14, 2009

Home From Awanita....

And it is kind of bittersweet.

Yeah many bad things happened, but the friendships I made will last a life time.

I am fortunate to have met everyone I did. They have helped me through the bad that have happened. I learn who I could trust and couldn't trust, and I learned that first impressions can be false impressions. My first impression of one girl however did not change, and to be quite honest if I never saw her again I'd be the happiest person ever!!!

I want to give a shout out to everyone of the summer staff.








Black Zack

White Zack








and Josiah

You all have meant so much to me and I thank you so much for helping me when I couldn't quite take care of myself. You all are like family to me, and I will keep a piece of each of you in my heart!!!

I also would like to say thanks to all the volunteers that have come up. You all are awesome. If it wasn't for the camp allowing volunteers to come up I probably would be single right now. lol. I would post a picture of myself and Casey, but I haven't gotten one yet. He has two on his phone, but I have yet to take any.

This summer was not like last summer, but it was a different summer, and I'm grateful for the experience.

Just for future reference, if you ever go to Awanita and you want to go down the water slide, cross your feet so that you can avoid breaking your fibula bone like I did. Yes it ended up being a fracture and not a jammed ankle.

Whatever. I stuck it out working there, and it was well worth it. I'm not a quitter.

Anyways Just letting you know that I'm back and that I should be popping out blogs a lot more than I have been doing.

peace out

and like the watermelon rind says

Don't Forget To Be Awesome!!!


Saturday, June 20, 2009

I jammed my ankle

going down the water slide...

It hurts, but I'll live.

I love it when I tell them how I jammed it. I get asked either "Did you hit something going down it?", or "did you go down it the right way?"

I went down it like you should... except I forgot to cross my legs, and that causes all the pressure to go into your heel. I didn't do it so my right foot went a weird way once I hit the water.

Now I can't walk on it. I can barely move it, and it hurts when I make any sudden movements.

This summer has had one bad omen after the other for me.

Cracked my zune screen
So much unnecessary girl drama in our room
Steven singing the Helen Keller song...(Actually that's pretty hilarious!!!)
Having to work in the Kitchen ever other two weeks for two weeks when I specifically signed for ropes and grounds...
My breakdown last Sunday
my ankle
having my laundry come back damp the past few times.

I'm having fun don't get me wrong, but it is definitely not last year.

In good news, everyone got Sunday off. The camp that is there right now is leaving before breakfast, and it's only like 50 campers, so they gave us the whole day off!!!

I Was excited!!!

I've got to go. My mom is going to go pick up Eric, who every time I've been home has been really nice and generous...It's weird.

Oh and speaking of brothers. I want to give a shout out to my bro Cassen up at the camp. He is just so awesome, and I love him like a brother. He is all that and a bag of chips. He helped me get from the dining hall to Angie's van which was far away...For someone on a crutch. He gave me a piggy back ride. I was scared, but he was actually able to hold my weight, and he didn't falter. He's awesome!!!


Peace out.

And pray for me the rest of the time I'm at camp.
I'll try and keep my blog posted when I get to come home.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

So today's my day off.

I'm really excited about that!!!

This might have been one of the only times I would have been able to come home.

Oh muy goodness. It has been so stressfull so far, and it's only been a week!!!

I'm already bumping heads with one of the girls. Oh she is so annoying. She reminds me of Keri-ann, a girl that work there last year. I was this close from smacking her, so I was really glad she wasn't able to come this year (thankgoodness for age limits!!!). This new girl is Keri-ann all over again, and I don't think that I'll be able to restrain myself from smacking her if she ends up pushing the wrong button.

Other than that the other people are great. A few of them are whiney. Cassen's back this year, and I don't know what I'd do without him. He's my bro!!!

I am close friends with three girls this summer, so that is a change from last year. It's mostly new girls vs. vet girls. lol. I find it kind of funny.

I had to teach ropes course. My mind is too spastic to be teaching people. I remember to tell people things like a few days after I teach the stuff. It's bad. lol. I finally got my first group yesterday, so that made me happy. Last week I had to go through and sort of supervise the new people. It was weird for me.

I'm just hoping that the stress will pass with this big 500 camp coming Thursday.

And here I was looking so forward to going to Awanita, and I'm already wanting to leave whenever I get the chance.

It's probably because Matt and Bama aren't there. :( It makes me sad. But I'll have to make the most of the situation as much as I can. I have a few people there I can talk to, but nobody I can fully trust except Cassen now.

I dye a few streaks of blue in my hair. But it's fading really fast so pretty soon, I'll have blond, and I don't like blond. Next Walmart run we make, I'm getting purple, that way when it fades it doesn't look like a different color all together. People keep asking if it's green in my hair, but it's blue. haha

Well I'm gonna go rest up, or visit Kathryn. Whichever.

Peace out!!!

Sunday, May 31, 2009

And so it goes.

This is probably my last day to be able to use the computer, so I might as well make a blog before I go. It's the least I could do. lol

For some reason though, after this weekend I really don't want to go now. I'm just finally starting to appreciate what I have. The podcast just so happens to be something that I love doing. As much as I don't like doing research, (I never have but what can you do?) I like hanging out with the guys, and most importantly I get to talk about the one thing that I know a lot about, and it's something that makes me happy. It's also something I feel I can contribute to, and not feel out of place (well I'm the only girl so I'm sort of out of place, but I can roll with the big dawgs...I don't know why I said that).

Friday I went to my friend's Heather and Cassidy's joint 16th birthday party. I got the biggest surprise when I walked in the door. My friend Shannon whom I haven't seen since High School was there. It just so happened that Heather's brother was friends with her. Small world. hehe. But over all it was a fun party, and it was something to get my mind off of packing.

Packing! Oh fun...NOT!!! I hate packing. Along with packing, I am also having to clean my room, so that when I do pack I won't break my neck. lol. Those of you who have seen my room (Harrison, Clint, Kathryn, Will, etc.) knows that I have a hard time keeping it clean, and that it is pretty messy. Thy also know I hate cleaning it. So this weekend has been one of the best, and worst weekends of my life. lol.

Yesterday we recorded the podcast. It was the 26th show which means we've been going strong for half a year!!! So to celebrate we had a mini party, and with that I mean myself, Brandon, Tyler, Jason, Alan, and My brother. Yeah they made me play a football game on the xbox. I don't understand football, nor do I have the attention span to play it as a video game. By some strange luck, I got picked to play against my brother. He also has no clue about football, but he plays video games more than I do. I was expecting him to win, but by a chance of luck I beat him fourteen to Zero. Haha Something I can Beat Eric at!!! YAY!!! He gets pissy when he loses.

Brandon and I when we were not playing watch the IT Crowd. I got someone else to like the show. I like talking to Brandon. He's a cool guy, and I feel like I can trust him. I have trouble with trusting people, so I found it so strange to me that I was able to trust him so easily so quickly. I just like spending time with him. I think I'll miss him the most out of everybody. We are still going to write each other, so that's always good. I like getting letters more than I do emails or anything internet related. I just feel like it's more personal.

Anyway. I already wrote a lot, but I found this old writing I did. I never finished it, but I do want to share what I have.

Music inspires everyone of us. It's a way to express ourselves whether it be playing an instrument, dancing, singing, or even writing lyrics to a song. Music is all around us, but what would happen if music was banned? Would it really be that bad, or would this society go to ruin?

I was wanting to write an article using that, but I never got around to it. Personally I'd hate it and I'd probably go mental. lol. Music is my life, and I don't know where I would be without it.


I'm gonna go either take a quick nap before church, pack, or find some bands that are giving away free downloads. Man I love Bands like that!!!

Until August

Much love

P.S. I will miss blogging. :(

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

So in nearly half a week...

...I'll be gone. I will go off for my second adventure as Summer Staff at Awanita Valley Christian Retreat Center.

I am hoping like I've said plenty of times before to make this go around a lot better than the last. Why you ask? Because last summer, I didn't act like myself.

I was a completely different person, and I didn't like who I was. I'm just hoping that they don't think that the way I acted last summer was who I am. This summer, I'm going to show them who I really am, and if they don't like it they can bite me...jk jk lol.

Anyways, I'm really excited...except for the packing part. I hate packing. That means I have to clean my room, so I can find everything. lol. I'm not very good at keeping my mind on one particular thing. I'm pretty sure you can tell by most of my blogs. lol.

Sunday was a very fun day. We, that is Kathryn, Will, Alex, Ryan, Abi, Allie, Tori, and myself went to Mellow Mushroom (I finally got to go!!!), Got to Shake hands with Clint Unicorn, as I posted in my last blog. Clint told me to post a blog that says just that and nothing else so I did. lol.
After pizza, we went to Coffee Underground. Allie, and Tori left after that, and the rest of us went to Falls park. That was an interesting trip. It was dark, and we ended up getting quite scarred. That's all I'm going to expand on that.

It was quite a hilarious night, and it was full of funny quotes. I wrote down what I could remember, but not enough to make into a post.

I have quite a bad memory.

Anyway. Thursday is the final Sunday School outing with our current Sunday school teachers Tony and Lisa. That makes me sad. I mean I've been used to them for the past few years. It will be really weird getting used to the new teachers.

Friday is my friends birthday party. It's at her house, and it's in walking distance so I don't have to worry about a ride!!! YES!!! It's hard for someone to go to a person party without a ride.

Saturday is my last recording of the podcast until August. It's also the half way through the year party for the podcast. lol. We've been going strong for 26 weeks!!! hopefully we'll go for much longer. Much much longer!!!

Sunday is church of course. It's graduation recognition service, so that means in orchestra we're playing...Pomp And Circumstance!!!! Whoop Whoop! lol. I don't have a part...unless Darian makes one.

Well I am listening to one of the best Trock bands out there...Actually the only one I know of. Chameleon Circuit!!!! They are awesome!!! Their cd comes out June 2nd and that sucks for me!!! I will have to wait till August to get it. :(

Well I've got to go.

Until next time

Much love

Monday, May 25, 2009

I have something to say...

I shook hands...(hoofs?) with a Unicorn that lives on Clint's face!

That is all.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Probably one of my last blogs...

...before I leave for the summer. I'm excited and raring to go, but I'm also afraid of making the same mistakes I did last summer.

But I am finally going to stand up for myself, and I am not letting anybody use me or push me around. Heck no!!!

Well I've had a pretty busy week, or at least it was busier than it normally is.

Went with my mom to the Saturn of Greenville Tuesday to figure out that she needed a new Fuel pump. With a rental Kia we went to Books-A-Million(I'd live in there if I could!!!), and before we even went in noticed the car had a nail. We still went in the store, and I got myself a copy of Maureen Johnson's book "Devilish". I got it for only 3 dollars. Yay for bargain books!!!

We then spent about 30 minutes looking for the car rental place. Found it and then got ourselves a Suzuki.

We went back to Saturn on Thursday to pick up mom's car, which she was super happy about. lol.

We went back to Books-A-Million, so we could look around more. I already knew what I was going in for though. I brought my wallet, and I bought myself "Paper Towns" by John Green. I'm so excited to read it!!! I do have to wait to read it because I told myself I'd read through The Harry Potter series before I left in honor of the movie that is coming out next month, and because I can't have non Christina books there. I'm still bringing "Paper Towns" and "Devilish". I need something to do on my days off, and free time...If I get any.

I went for a walk once my mom left for work. I checked the mail, got the newspaper, and read that the Easley Band Concert was that night. I had no idea what-so-ever. So I rushed to get ready, and called Kathryn up.

We went to Dunkin Donuts before and got ourselves some flatbread sandwiches. They were yummy!!

The Band Concert was Amazing. They played some really great songs, and they played it well. I really liked when the Wind Ensemble played Vesuvius. They played it really well.

Today, I went to play Ultimate Frisbee. I've been wanting to play the game since February. I love it!!! It's one of my favorite sports to play. I always look forward to playing. This was my only chance of playing.

We were suppose to record tonight, but there was a change of plans. Jason and maybe Brandon are going to the Spineshank show tonight. I'm glad for that because I'm so sore!!!

Right now I am listening to Harry and the Potters. This weekend is leaky Con, and I wish I was there!!! One day I will go no matter what!!! I will go and there is nothing anybody can do to stop me!!!

Tomorrow, since the guys moves the recording to tomorrow, I might go to Symon and Alex's joint birthday party, but I don't know how I'm going to work that out.

It's at these moments I wish I could drive. I hate having to rely on other people. It sucks!!!

Oh well.

Sunday I finally get to go to Mellow Mushroom. I'm excited about that!!! I'm gonna be chillin' with Kathryn, Will, and a whole bunch of our others friends. It's going to be great!!!

Well I've chatted enough.

I'm going to post two videos right now.

The funny one, which I think anyone will like even if you're a Twilight fan or not. It's got the guy who played James in the movie, and a group of Twilight Tweens girls. What follows is just pure hilarity!!

And this next video is a song I really like from the musical group that got me into music in the first place. I relate to this song a lot, and I think any girl that doesn't like to dress up will relate to it too!

Well I hope you enjoyed those.

Until next time

Much love and such.

Friday, May 15, 2009

The end of a great week.

I have been itching to write this blog all week long, and I finally get a chance to!!!

I am just hoping that I can finish this before the season finale of The Best Years comes on. Let's just say it's two hours and I know I will loss my train of thought.

Tuesday I got a sudden call from Skank (Ashley) asking me if I'd like to go to Awanita with her, Adam (Her Brother), and his friend Josiah. Of course any time I get a chance to go up to leave my house I jump all over it. So I get ready, and we head on out to go pick up Josiah, and then head up the mountain to a place I'll be spending ten weeks of isolation goodness at...in two weeks that is. Anyway Josaih was going up there to apply for the last open summer staff spot available. Anyway we pretty much hung around the staff house. Angie and Colby came down to talk to us. Adam, Josiah, Colby, and myself had a mini flip-flop fight, and Colby and I had a argument again about who won the flip flop fight this past summer. To me, I will only take into account what video evidence shows us, and it shows that I had the last hit, therefore I win! If you want to have a debate on it, then watch this.

Anyway I only have 3 minutes till The Best Years comes on. I have the attention span of someone who doesn't have a great attention span.

*2 hours later*

I love "The Best Years", but I don't like how the have the season finale's end in cliff hangers!!! That makes me a bit mad. There has only been two seasons, but I'm sure there will be more.

*The Next Day*

My brother came home really early last night so I didn't get to finish.

Anyway back to what happened. After we went to Awanita, I hung out with Adam and Josiah at Adam's house. We watched The Rocky Horror Picture Show (Heck yeah!!!) Brittany and Tiffany came like in the middle of the movie. Then we watched The Virgin Spring, which is a Swedish film that is actually pretty good. I love Foreign films. then we had pizza. We also had tea which with the way we were acting it seemed like there was something in those Lady Gray tea packets...It was the funniest thing ever. I couldn't stop laughing from the way we were talking.

We watched the Surprise party and Body Fusion SNL clips. They are hilarious.

After that we watched Drop Dead Gorgeous, and I find it to be a funny movie, and a funny take on documentaries. I love documentaries,a nd I've always wanted to make one so I just found it humorous.

Thursday I spent the day hanging with Ashley O. I went with her to a ranch up near Awanita. She wanted to ride her horse Monty, and of course I took it as grand photo opportunity...That and I rarely get to hang out with Ashley. Horses are my favorite land animal, so I was happy that Ashley wanted me to come with her. I got a lot of pictures, and it was such a beautiful day. Then we got some Taco Bell, and headed back to her place to watch Big Bang Theory. That show reminds me sort of The IT Crowd. I love it!!! I love any show that involves scientific people, but I hate when they use the stereotype that Nerds are lonely sad people. It kind of pisses me off. Stereotypes suck and they should be banned from the universe forever!!!

Anyway. I thought my week had a great end, but then my brother had to come home pissy last night. I asked him if he had to work today, and he said your an idiot because I've been saying all week that I don't. Yeah he told mom at night while I was asleep. I kept trying to tell him that, but he kept interrupting me and calling me an idiot. I told him not to call me an idiot again, and he did so I pour a small drop of soda on his head. He was smiling for the first minute, then he just flipped. He tried to punch me like 5 time but only got me once. Then he kicked my door, and said I hope I broke something. I would have laughed if it was something of his. He left a mark on my door. The door did nothing to him.

Anyway He said he was going to lock me out of the computer...Doesn't look like it to me.

I apologized because I was really sorry, but he didn't. He always thinks nothing is his fault. He is quite a jerk, and an egomaniac. I seriously think he's Bi-polar, and needs help.

And he wonders why I don't like telling people that I have a brother.

Anyway. I should be at a birthday party for Kristen, but I'm here waiting. We have podcast recording tonight, and I don't want to miss the next few shows because then I'll have Ten weeks without it. Oh I'm going to be so out of the music world loop for some time.

Well I've got to go get ready.

This blog last longer than I originally planned on it to be. I guess I've learned my lesson. I need to be more focused when I post a blog. Or else it will take a whole day to post lol.

Much love


Sunday, May 10, 2009

It's mother's day!!!

Yay!!! I first want to say I love my mommy!!!

I am super hyper today. Normally I'm all sluggish and tired on Sunday's, but I'm super hyper and happy.

Yesterday myself, Brandon, and Tyler went to Jason's house to record for the podcast, but his computer is acting funky. So we didn't get to record. The guys played Madden while I caught up on sleep. I haven't been sleeping well the past few weeks. Brandon kept bothering me. I hate being so ticklish!!! He'll get what's coming to him very very soon!!! I didn't mind not playing Madden though. I'm just happy to get out of my house anytime I can.

I'm currently catching up on the Brotherhood 2.0 videos. I only started watching their channel in about November last year. I want to at least finish all of the B20 videos before I leave for Awanita so I don't forget what day I'm on. lol.

I'm excited. I'm mentally ready for the summer, but not physically. I still need to get all my toiletries, cclothes, and other such things. Three more weeks!!!

Oh my brother got an internet connector for the Wii, so if you want have Wii wifi, and you want a friend, send me your friend code. I don't really know which friend code I should get. The only games I have that you can play online are Super Smash Bros. Brawl and Pokemon Battle Revolution.

I do not have church tonight. Longer nap time!!! yes!!!

So I'm going to get off here.

I miss BEDA. I like having to rack my brain for things to blog about. It's been almost a week and a half maybe even two weeks...And I can't think of what to talk about!!!! How sad is that?

I did have an idea yesterday, but I want to wait till I have my thoughts all written down on paper about that subject. It will be interesting. Who knows. I might even use that topic to make my come back onto vlogging. Exciting stuff.

Well until next time

Much love and best wishes


Friday, May 1, 2009

I'm writing about...


I have recently started writing poetry again. This was all brought out from watching HBO's new show Brave New Voices. It's awesome. All these teenagers are freaking talented. They are spitting out these lines like their life depended on it. It's powerful stuff. I think slam poetry is the top art form that can render me speechless. I've been a fan for years. It's just awesome.

It inspires me to keep writing, and to grow stronger in my writing. I know I will never be as great as other people, but I only write to get my thoughts out.

I like it so much that I thought I'd share a video with you all.

I really should be washing my dishes.

Oh well

Yesterday was a really great day to me. Recording the podcast is always really fun, but I feel I was at my best at last nights recording. I find that fun because I was at my best while at my worst. I'm still a bit sick, and my head is filled with snot, so that worried me a bit. I'm just afraid I'll sound a bit nasally.

I read a quote today that I loved once I saw it. It's from Brave New Voices and this girl named Britney Wilson wrote a poem called Crutches. From that poem is this line "It's hard for me to express myself cause I can't protect myself if I'm exposed." That is so true. I guess that's why I have such a problem writing because I'm afraid of what people will think if I lay my heart on the table for everyone to see.


I'm going to go.

I hope everyone has a great day and great weekend.

I'll see ya when I see ya!!!

Thursday, April 30, 2009

So it's the last day of BEDA

...and I must say I'm kind of sad. It has been a very insightful month, and I have learned a lot just by typing in these blogs.

I have learned that I'm not very good at paying attention to writing these blogs. I'll type a little, then open up a tab and check facebook, or my email, then continue typing.

I learned that I actually have a lot to say. I thought that this blogging everyday thing was going to be hard because I sit at home all day pretty much. What interesting information could come from me. I guess in those times I spend doing nothing, my mind manifests all these thoughts.

BEDA was a good thing because it helped me be more confident in my typing skills, and in my ability to get my thoughts out there. Not only that I found a few interesting blogs to read. I love writing blogs, but I love reading other people's blogs better. I found a few great ones like Delightfully Mediocre, and of course Maureen Johnson's blog was pretty insightful. You never know how something like this impacts people.

I'm glad I participated in this even though the past few days I haven't been able to blog. It was fulfilling. I never thought I'd be able to post this many consecutive blogs in a row.

Yesterday's lack of blog was because my brother kind of got ticked at me for proving I think 6 times, that he complains to much, and doesn't know when to stop complaining. I found it quite funny, but apparently he didn't. He loggged out, and he has the profile password protected. I don't know the password, so I guess that didn't help anything. lol

So I'm not in Clemson. I'm not hanging out with Jennifer, which is a bummer. She got sick the past few days as well, and on top of that she has exams to study for. I wouldn't have wanted to keep her from studying, so it's for the best.

We are recording the podcast tonight. So that means I need to go research like mad!!!

But before I go, my friend Will found this story, and I read it, and found it freaking funny. I also think it's a great way to end out BEDA for me anyway.

Don't Mess With The Marching Band Girl

QUARTZ HILL, Calif. - Don't mess with a marching band girl, especially one armed with a baton.

A 17-year-old high school marching band student beat up two assailants who tried to mug her as she walked to school in this high desert community about 40 miles north of Los Angeles, sheriff's officials said Tuesday.

The girl punched one of the men in the nose, kicked the other in the groin and beat both with her large baton before she ran away on Friday morning, officials said.

"The moral to this story is don't mess with the marching band girls, or you just might get what you deserve," said Los Angeles County sheriff's Deputy Michael Rust.

He said two men approached the girl from behind, grabbed her coat and demanded money. Deputies searched near Quartz Hill High School for the muggers, looking for a man who was holding his bloodied nose and the other limping.

No arrests have been made, but Rust said it appears the girl made her point to her assailants.

"Final score: Marching band 2, thugs 0," Rust quipped.

Haha!!! Marching band girls kick butt. I mean come on now. People think you can't get hurt by flags, and wooden rifle, but they've never been hit by one. Talking from experience they hurt when they hit you.

So until next time

Much love, DFTBA, and Best Wishes!

Tuesday, April 28, 2009


I missed posting yesterday!!! Dang it! lol.

I was extremely sick yesterday, and I'm better today. That and my brother was rearranging his room, s he restricted the computer from me. :(


Nothing new has happened. I'm excited for the week to come.

New Whitest Kids U' Know tonight.

Hopefully I'll be able to go hang out with Jennifer Wednesday or Thursday. Which ever is best for her schedule. She has exams this week so hopefully, she won't be to bogged down, but if she is, I don't want to be a nuisance. Saturday, my mom's boyfriend's sister, and family are going to be having a birthday/mothers day bash. There are four people in that family that having birthdays in the next coming day's so I'm looking forward to that. I mean they are like family to me.

Sunday is the Youth choir end of the year party. The youth choir has done a really great job this year, and I think they deserve some time to relax and have fun.

With all that happening, I don't even know if I'll be able to record the podcast this week. I wish I could say I could schedule around for the podcast, but it's time I finally had me time, and let my life revolve around other things. Don't get me wrong, I love the podcast, and the guys are awesome, it's just I've scheduled around around it for a while now, and it's one more month before I go to Awanita, and that will pretty much be my entire summer. I need to hang out with my friends while I can.

Well, I have to go. The Zyntec(sp?) is starting to make me drowsy!!!

Until next time

Much love

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Naps are good...

...especially right after a trip home from Awanita.

I had a fun this time...Well I always have fun, but this time I actually made an effort to talk with my friends. It was just five of us; Cassen, Sydney, Grayson, and new girl Katie, and myself. There were also two people came came for a little bit and their names were Noah, and Katrina I think. Anyway I got to have a conversation with Noah. He is pretty cool. He's a Business major at North Greenville. I told him that I wanted to get into photography as a back up, and go into film and hopefully become a music video director. HE asked me the one of the questions I could probably never answer. He asked what's your favorite music video. That's just as hard as me saying what my favorite song it. It really changes day to day. It's never the same. Anyway he said that one of his was "In The End" by Linkin Park...I could tell by his answer that we are going to get along just fine!!!

Anyway Saturday I had kitchen duty til after lunch, and then myself and Grayson got put on Zip line duty, so needless to say that I didn't get to go to Mr. Don's Funeral, but it was for the best. Somebody had to stay to keep the camp running.

I loved being at the zip line because I was outside enjoying the nice day, and it was just so peaceful. Even having to put all of the pulleys on the wire. I didn't care. That's what the good outdoors does to you!!!

Anyway that night. We had Bible study. I really wasn't "There". I could hear what Benny was saying, but it just went out the other ear. Hey at least I was awake. Grayson slept through it, and started snoring. lol. I wanted to throw a peppermint at him, but I decided to be nice.

After that, I got to talk with Cassen and Sydney, and we just had a ball. Cassen had gotten up to go get some kool-aid, and when he came back sydney was reaching for something, and Cassen said, "Don't put your thumb out under me before I sit down. That junk hurts. That's not for entering." Sydney and I just started busting out laughing. I had rice crispies in my mouth so I had to make sure I didn't breathe to hard or else they would fly everywhere that's how hard I was laughing. He also added to that, "I should get that tattooed on my back(Refering to "That's not for entering.)" And he also said "I was thinking about dying this green(Motioning towards pubic area), and get a tattoo that says don't walk on the grass." That comment ruined it a bit, but I was still in stitches. Cassen is just hilarious.

Anyway this morning, we had breakfast, and finished with kitchen work, and then headed home. :( I love being home, but I adore being with friends even more.

Once I got home I took a nap. Then woke up, and now I'm writing this. I have Church tonight. I need to talk to Jennifer tonight as well.

Anyway to leave you with something, here's a video I saw that I liked a lot. It's boring for the first forty seconds, but once it gets started it's quite great.

Until tomorrow...If I can wake up tomorrow.

Best Wishes

Friday, April 24, 2009

whoop whoop!!!

I finally finished my review of Ben Lee's "The Rebirth Of Venus"!!!

Now don't make fun because it's my very first album review. I think I did a pretty good job. (Every time I press the shift key, it shows a little box that says "Shift. lol. just thought I'd throw that out there.)

In all honesty, I've only heard a few of Ben Lee's songs, so I didn't really know what to expect listening to his new album "The Rebirth Of Venus." The album art is very colorful, and it catches the eye, but they always say never judge a book by it's cover. On the inside cover, he talks about Venus, the Goddess of Love and Beauty, and how we, men and women, need to cultivate the many qualities this Goddess represents and embodies.

Once the album starts, you're just introduced to pleasant ear candy. I pretty much got entrapped into the entire album. I've only listened to a few albums all the way through, and this one is added to that list. Not because I had to, but because it is amazing. I was captivated by all the songs and how each one is unique in it's own way. I loved the use of pots and pans in "What's So Bad(About Feeling Good)", and the backing vocals in "Blue Denim" sounding like Kazoos' at one point. It wasn't just the music, but the lyrics were so well written. They spoke a lot of truth and in some way, I could relate to each song. The lyrics are just really motivating and makes me want to get out there and make a difference in the world. "I Love Pop Music" is one of the those songs that just need to be played on mainstream radio because of it's unique take on all of the trails and tribulations going on in the world today. It would definitely get people's attention.

All in all, this album is a refreshing take on the male's perspective of femininity. It exceeded my expectations, and I recommend it to anyone. If you're a Ben Lee fan, if you need a happy pick-me-up, if you need motivation, or if you are someone who wants a taste of feminine ideals; I have a feeling you'll love this album as much as I did.

So that's that.

Oh I'm going to Awanita this weekend, so I will unfortunately have to miss posted tomorrow. Not because there won't be any internet up there, it just would take forever to even post it. They have dial up and it is as slow as molasses on weed...I don't know that just seemed like a good depiction of how show it really is.

But hey I've gone this far blogging in April. I will also be home Sunday, so really I'll probably just miss one day. I thought that I would miss about five or six blogs due to my bro being home, but that wasn't the case at all. I'm proud of being able to stick with it.

One more week of BEDA! That kind of makes me sad, but also happy because I was totally running out of things to blog about. I think this experiment kind of helped my blogging ability. I am hoping to write better blogs in the future...just not every day. haha

Until Sunday.


Thursday, April 23, 2009


So I just got done watching Hank Greens new song, and video for...of course "DFTBA" It was amazing. Have you seen this video? Well I'm posting it right here!!!

Seriously!!! It's freakin Awesome!!! Makes me even prouder to be a Nerdfighter!!! I never knew Hank could rap! lol.


My brother complains to much. He asked me why don't I put on my clothes in the bathroom right after I take a shower. Umm I don't find it comfortable. He just doesn't understand other people's personal preference. He's just a weird guy!

Oh!!! I got the new Ben Lee cd "The Rebirth Of Venus" in the mail yesterday. I have to review it before Tuesday. The reason being is that it comes out on Tuesday. I have listened to it, and it is fantastic...Now I just have to wirte the review. Here's to good luck for my first ever album review. Hopefully I can do a good job, and give Ben Lee some Justice!!!

Well I have to go do so reseacrh for the podcast, because I haven't done a single bit and I'm probably leaving in about thirty minutes to an hour.

So until next time.


Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Yo and Hello

haha I totally ripped off Kim from Radio Free Roscoe.

So today I went with my mom to the optometrist. One of the ladies said that I look sort of like her niece. As the appointment went on she said I was more and more like her niece. I found it weird. We got herself a pair of glasses, and she wanted me to help her pick it out.

My brother and I are having a yelling conversation about how I have trouble spelling words, and that he thinks he's a god at spelling words. So I quizzed him on a word about how to spell optometrist, and he was like Oh I can spell words I've seen before. I never have to use the word optometrist, so I don't know how to spell it. Then we went on saying how you don't use the word optometrist in everyday speech, and we said it enough to be able to have a week or two conversation using the word.

haha We argue about some of the weirdest things.

oh and apparently my oldest aunt got the nick-name betch. I don't know I'm just repeating what my mom said.

I just found out today that the co-founder of Camp Awanita Mr. Don passed away yesterday, so I will be keeping the Baltz family in my prayers. I hope I get to go to the funeral Saturday.

Well until tomorrow.


Tuesday, April 21, 2009


...post because I have till my brother makes his bed. lol.

I've been having the same weird dream for the past few days. I'm in this huge room. I mean like it's like a mile long. In the middle of the room, there's a couch. I'm sitting there with a guy (Whom I can't see his face.) we are just chilling out and when I got to give him a hug, two people appear out of nowhere, and take him away. No matter how fast I run, I can never catch up. After a bit it gets to hard to breathe and I fall to my knees, and that's when I wake up.

I find it weird, and I thought I might share it with you all.

I'm currently drinking hot chocolate, and watching Robin Hood: Men In Tights.

I'm gonna go.

Peace out homies!!!

Monday, April 20, 2009

This really can't be long.

My bro is in the shower and I have to make this quick!!!

Today was such a gorgeous day, so I decided to go outside. I wrote a bit for a story I'm working on. I took pictures of flowers that are blooming. Normally the flowers that bloom in the back and front yard don't bloom till June. So I'm glad they bloomed early for me. I love them. The ones in the front yard are red, and the ones in the back yard are purple. I also saw two caterpillars while going to check the mail. It reminded me of when and I used to play with them all the time. Aww the good ole days.

I love going outside.

I have to go before my bro gets out of the shower.

Until next time

Best Wishes

Sunday, April 19, 2009

I am trying real hard...

...to keep my eyes open. I almost drifted to sleep at lunch!!!

So, we didn't end up going to Mellow Mushroom at all. :( Oh well as long as they go before I leave for Awanita!!!

It was all good though. We got Papa John's pizza, and pretty much hung out for a while before we recorded the podcast. It was fun. Yesterday was all in all one of the best days ever!!!

It was also a very pretty day outside also!!!

I am though confused about something. I'd rather not say what it is, but I am confused.

Church service was really good.

My Sunday school class found out that the current teachers, Tony and Lisa, will not be teaching our class after June 1. That made me sad. Tony is a pretty awesome teacher, and Lisa is amazingly awesome. I don't want them to leave. They will be replace by another couple. I don't know about this, but if it is the will of the Lord I can't really complain about it.

I'm listening to "Accio Deathly Hallows" by Hank Green

I love that song!!!


I'm now going to go take a nap!!!!

Until next time.

Best Wishes

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Random thoughts

- Reel Big Fish is one of the best ska bands ever!!!
- Typing with two fingers is way easier and faster for me then using all my fingers...though I sometimes miss some of the keys
- I am writing this at someone else's house
- I just finished typing out cleaning documents for Awanita
- I don't even think I'll finish typing this onto my blog before I have to go get ready for the podcast.
- I'm writing this at 2 o' clock. So if it says a different time, it's because I finally got on the internet.
- When I write with a felt tip pen, I feel like I'm apart of the show Ghostwriter. Man, that was an awesome show.
- I wish I could own a panda
- To play piano like Ben Folds would be freaking amazing!!!
- I really don't want to leave Awanita, but since this is posted that means I'm already home. :(
-One month and twelve days until summer.

Just so you know those were all written earlier today.

I just got back from Awanita, and I am now about to go take a shower and get ready to record the podcast.

Afterward...Mellow Mushroom!!!! I love it there.

I've had a great day so far...Let's hope that doesn't get ruined. lol.

until next time

Best Wishes

Friday, April 17, 2009


I was so desperate to do something today cause I knew I would get bored, and guess what? I'm still bored, but Angie is going to come pick me up, and I'm going to camp Awanita for the night!!! Yippy Skippy.

It's not like I won't be there for 10 weeks this summer, right?

She needs help with inventory, painting, and all that good stuff to get ready for the summer. I might as well. I have nothing else planned for tonight or the greater part of tomorrow. The only other thing I have tomorrow is the Podcast, and that won't be till around eight or nine at night. Maybe even later.

I need to cut my nails. They are getting a bit long.

I also have to do research before Angie comes get me, so I won't have to worry about it at all tomorrow.

I really should pack.

I'm sorry about this one being a really random thought blog.

I've been really scatter brained lately. I'm also going back and forth from different pages. I can never really just focus on typing and finishing a blog post without being distracted.

I better go.

But I do have a video for everyone.

This song has been stuck in my mind...well the beat of it anyway. It took me about 3 days before I knew what it was. That bothered me, and when I figured it out I was super duper happy.

It's a video from Sunshine Taylor. The song is from a group called Little Birdy and the song is "Bodies". I really like the song, and I can't find it anywhere!!!! If you know where I can find it, please tell me.

Hope you enjoy.

Until next time

Best Wishes

P.S. Diablo Cody is one of the best writers ever!!! Case and point...United States Of Tara, and of course Juno!!!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

The first part of this blog...

...is a question.

Ok so today my mom and I went to Jack and the Box. While waiting for the food at the drive-thru, I took the straw paper and tied it in a knot, and broke it. Now here's where the question comes into play. I was told this years ago, and I can't quite remember what the little trick thing was. Now the trick was you tie a knot into the straw paper, and rip it apart. Now I can't remember if you rip it apart and the knot stays together something happenes, or if you rip it apart and the knot doesn't stay together something good happens. I am just curious because for the first time ever in my exisitance I have ripped the paper apart, and the knot came unraveled!!! I just want to know if that's a good thing or bad thing.

I am so bad at all this superstitious stuff. I've never been a big believer in superstition. Now I'm not saying I don't like doing some of the things though. For instance, when I'm in the car with my friend Kathryn when we see a car with one headlight out we always say popeye, and kiss our hands and hit the roof of the car. That and I also like to say 11:11 make a wish. I believe I've done that in a past blog recently. lol.

Anyway. I need to get ready for my radio show which is in 20 minutes, and I also have to do more research for the podcast, which I'm assuming we are recording tonight...I haven't gotten the word yet.

I'm always the last to know everything...Well not everything. I'm just glad I have a friend that trusts me and knows he can confide in me that which he doesn't want anyone to know yet.

Well until next time

Best Wishes!!!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

I really can't write a long blog...

..so this is going to be a drive by posting.

Pretty much I'd like to talk about a movie I watched last night on IFC.

It's called Trainspotting. It has a very young Ewan McGregor ( as seen in Moulin Rouge, The Star Wars Prequel. and many more movies that were great.), and Jonny Lee Miller (Also played in Hackers, one of my favorite movies.)

I found it to be a very good movie, and the story line was fantastic. The movie came out in 1996, so it's twelve years old, but it's so much better than most of the movies that are coming out now. It was on IFC so it is sort of independent like.

I love IFC. It's sucha great channel. I mean it brought me to liking The IT Crowd, and it brought me The Whitest Kids U Know uncensored. (I actually started watching TWKUK on Fuse, but it was censored, and no fun. lol.) Not only that, it also shows some of the best movies out there, and it also has a show that features some of the best indie music out there. How could I not love IFC.

Anyway. I better go. I have to dry my hair, and get ready for church tonight.

Best Wishes

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

It's Tuesday...

...and some how I am on the computer. Yeah I have no idea why? It just so happens that I think God wants me to be able to complete the BEDA challenge I set for myself. lol. My brother is on his way to the Theater (where he works) to exchange quarters for dollars, so he can go by more RAM for his computer. He got the game "The Last Remnant" for windows. Which means I'm going to have to get used to...again...Windows Vista. I had just gotten used to XP, and now I have to change my mind set. Oh how I dislike changing computer settings. lol

Anyway. Yesterday, my friend Nicole (A.K.A Symon) and I went around various locations in Easley and filmed ourselves randomly dancing. Boredom makes you do really weird stuff. The various locations include; The High School, one of the elementary schools, three locations at the park, three spots in Wal-Mart, two spots at Downtown Easley, in front of a pasture with cows, and at a friends house. It was quite fun, and I enjoyed myself completely. I can't wait to start editing it, and letting people see how bored we really get. I'd edit it now, but I have no idea how long I have on the computer. I will start editing on Friday, and hopefully be done by then.

Tonight, I will be watching The Whitest Kids U Know. I will also be watching the IFC Music Blast, so I can find bands that i could possibly ask to feature on my radio show. I need to find more bands.

Oh and a few days ago, I got my first follower (Or at least it's the first one to show up on my dashboard.) I just want to thank all of you that read my blog. I never thought that anyone would be interested in reading it at all. Everytime I get a comment, it just makes my day! So thanks again!!! :)

Well I'm going to go.

Until next time (hopefully tomorrow lol)

Best Wishes

Monday, April 13, 2009

It's a gloomy day...

...outside. I was hoping it would be a nice day outside like has been the past few days. I can't stand this Bi-Polar weather.

I am currently watching John Green talk about the stories and stuff in This is not Tom. I wanted to get involved in the riddles for this is not tom, but I suck at riddles. Puzzles I am really good at, but riddles confuse the crap out of me. I'm just glad they posted the chapters in a website called thisisnotforums.com so that way I can just read the story, and not have to slam my head against the desk figuring these riddles out.

I did get to g to dinner with my friend Jennifer last night, and I think it was needed. We've been wanting to hang out, but never got a chance to so it was very delightful to hang out with her. I think we both learned a lot about each other that we couldn't really talk about around other people. That's why I like hanging out with people one on one.

So I am to look up a video (on direct orders from Jennifer) on youtube called Mario Cart Love Song. I am going to post the video because I want those of you who haven't seen it to see it so that I won't be the only one who hasn't heard of it.

(Just got done listening to it.) Aww that is precious!!!

Oh well, that's really all.

I am hoping I get to post tomorrow. If there isn't a post here you can always check on my profile page on Maureen Johnson's ning.

Until next time

Best Wishes

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Easter Sunday!!!

Yay!!! Today is the day that Jesus rose from his grave two thousand years ago.

It's a great day to be alive. It's nice outside I'm wearing my hippie skirt, and converse...I'll show you a picture of my outfit.

I never really wear skirts, but I love this skirt!!! I wanted to wear it for the longest time, I just never had a time to wear it. Easter Sunday I think was the best day for it. I liked my outfit. I care what anyone says I like it a lot.

Anyway. Sunday school caught me by surprise. Our lesson was the last on in the series friends, and this one hit really close to home. It was about Identity, and how people sometimes can influence, whether it be a good or bad influence, what we think of ourselves. Now, I have had a tough time with identity, and lately it's been rough because I just don't know anymore who I really am. Hearing the two kids stories about it really made me relate to them because for years I dictated who I was with who I hung out with and who I was friends with. One of the stories was so close to mine that it brought me to the point of crying. I don't like to cry because it shows weakness, and I tried to force it back. I have had problems with people making fun of me, and telling me I'm not cool because I won't do what everyone else does. I just got so sick of it. I didn't have friends for most of Middle school, and when I did have friends I built walls and not bridges.

The guy that was summarizing the stories said that in order for you to be able to find your true Identity is that you have to be honest with yourself. Don't be negative about yourself, but be sure to find what your faults are and continually work at improving yourself. He said other things, but I can't quite remember what he said.

Anyway, I then played in the orchestra, then listened to the message Pastor Jim had for us. I thne came home, and now I am bored sitting here writing this blog.

Jennifer, I'd have to say probably the person I'm closest to at church, said that we might go to dinner sometime tonight. So I'll be looking forward to that. I never get to hang out with her as much as I want to, but we can never find a time that is perfect for the both of us. She's an RA at Clemson, and when she's on duty I have nothing planned, and when she isn't on duty is when I have planned. I just want to hang out with her before she's out of school, and on her way to the mission trip she's going on over the summer, and before I have to go to Awanita. So it will be hard to plan, but it will happen.

Well I'm going to go take a nap.

Best Wishes

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Interesting day.

So I only have one hour to complete this blog before the end of the day!!! I got to make this quick!!!

Tenebrae went really well last night. I found it pretty ironic though that there was a huge thunderstorm going on during the performance. the power went out during one of the songs. It would have been really cool, if communion wasn't going on and people didn't need to walk around. Anyway. It was a huge storm. There were a few uprooted trees here and there. (11:11 make a wish)It's a good thing that it came and passed while everyone was inside. I got to talk to him, but it seemed like he wanted to leave pretty fast, so I'm going to assume that he was trying to avoid me.

Anyway. I promised myself that I wouldn't talk about guy stuff at all, but I had to throw that little factoid out there.

I got to hang out with my friend Bippy!!!
Yay bippy!

I haven't seen her in like forever almost. (almost 6 months.) We hung out for a bit. Walked through the woods. Watched Trod Monsoon (I think that's the name.) Went to Taco bell where I ate a bean burrito that did not sit well with my stomach. Went to Miracle Hill Thrift store. I like it, it's like goodwill without sales tax!!! I love any store that doesn't have tax. I'm so going there to get myself a tweed skirt!!! I want one so much. Then we went on a bike ride, where we met up with three of Bippy's friends and two girl that neither one of us knew. then rode the bikes back to her house. Watched an episode of The IT Crowd. Then her mom came home. after a bit, we went to Arby's, and then I came home. We really didn't have anything planned, but it was better than being at home by ourselves. It was just good to hang out with a friend. I haven't had that in a while.

All in all a good day. The only bad thing was the bike ride was hell to my pelvis. Sorry to be so blunt about it. Though it was a very fun scenic route. I guess it was the fact that I haven't ridden a bike in years. I'd say almost 10 years. lol

I hope to have a blog tomorrow. It just depends on if my brother works tomorrow. Tomorrow might be my last day, and then I think my streak will be over. :(

I finished it with 22 minutes to spare. YEAH!!!

Good night all

Friday, April 10, 2009


...Tonight is Tenebrae. I'm excited to perform for His glory. I'm really excited for people see our hard work pay off, and I'm excited to see if it impacts people's lives.

I really have nothing to talk about. Yesterday we recorded the podcast, and according to Brandon it was our best show to date. I will agree a little. Anyway, I still think I am stupid sounding. Oh well what can you do?

anyway since I have nothing to talk about at all, I just thought I'd post a thing one of the ladies in the orchestra sent to me.


1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate anti-depressant.

2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Talk to God about what is going on in your life. Buy a lock if you have to.

3. When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, 'My purpose is to__________ today. I am thankful for______________'

4. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.

5. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon, broccoli , almonds & walnuts.

6. Try to make at least three people smile each day.

7. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control.
Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

8. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college kid with a maxed out charge card.

9. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

10. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

11. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

12. You are not so important that you have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

13. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.

14. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

15. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

16. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?'

17. Forgive everyone for everything.

18. What other people think of you is none of your business.

19. GOD heals everything - but you have to ask Him.

20. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

21. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch!!!

22. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

23. Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements: I am thankful for__________. Today I accomplished_________.

24. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.

25. When you are feeling down, start listing your many blessings. You'll be smiling before you know it.

Send this to everyone you care about.

God Bless You

I read this, and it made me feel ten times better. Especially after what happened this week. I'm going to apply it my everyday life.

Well I'm going to go, because I need to get ready, and if I procrastinate any longer, I might end up forgetting, and being left with only 30 minutes to get ready lol.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

When Judgement Comes...

So I didn't get to blog here yesterday, but I still got to blog on my profile on Maureen Johnson's ning. I still have blogged everyday this month so far. I am hoping to keep it up!!
So yesterday. I had orchestra practice because This Friday we are going to be having a Tenebrae service. For those that don't know Tenebrae means the cross...from what I heard. So if you've been reading my blog you know that I was stressing about yesterday. I was afraid that my friend(Whom I told I kind of liked on Monday) would completely not talk to me because of what I said to him. I was also afraid of it being an awkward situation. Well Good news, It wasn't awkward at all. We talked like we normally would, and it seemed like it never happened. I'm super happy about that because he is a really good friend of mine, and I like talking to him about random things. So things are good, and I am not disappointed anymore. I would like to take it back yes, but it didn't seem to cause much damage. Though he is very good at hiding things, so who knows really.

Anyway. The reason for the name of this blog entry is because I recently joined a street team called System of Freaks. It's for the band Mary Magdalan. Her music is awesome. I like it a lot, and makes me want to do what makes me happy with myself. I am proud to be a member of the street team, and I'm ready to spread the word of her music, and to make a difference for music I like. Though it's metal, so most of my friends would not listen to it, but I will find someone that will.

I have to get ready for my radio show, which is in an hour. I also have to research for the podcast, which we normally record on a Saturday, but we are having to record on a Thursday. I am hoping that they'll let me record on the Thursday of the weekend I'm going to Awanita. Or else I'll be absent for another show. lol.

Well I'm going to go.

Best Wishes

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Difference of opinion.

I like what Delightfully mediocre said in a comment to my last blog. She said that she considers disappointment and rejection a difference of Opinion. I find that to be more opptimistic and doesn't hurt as much to think of it like that. SO I'd like to thank you first before I start telling you what happened. By The way on her Last.fm she has a picture of Amelie, which so happens to be my favorite Foreign movie. So Delightfully Mediocre...You are awesome in my book!!!

Anyway. Like I said in my blog post yesterday, I said I was going to tell this guy that I like him (I'd like to keep his name a secret.) Anyway I wanted to tell him in person so badly, but I'm the biggest wuss ever. I decided to ask him if he'd be online in the allotted time slot (Because my brother wasn't home in between that time.) So he got on about 4:50ish. So we talked about random stuff for an hour, and when it was time for me to go, I made the stupid mistake of saying. oh I forgot to tell you what i wanted to tell you. and he asked if I had time. I said I guess. I wanted to tell you this yesterday, but I think I kind of like you.

All he said was ok. I then said I better go cya.

I feel like such an idiot. I now have to see him at orchestra practice tomorrow. It's going to be so awkward, and I'm going to be so embarrassed. That's why after I got offline, I watched as much IT Crowd as I could, so I could take my mind off of the situation that wouldn't have happened if I didn't all of a sudden get brave.

I guess God didn't want us together like that. Maybe we were just meant as friends. I just hope we can stay friends and no be so awkward around each other.

Anyway. My brother doesn't have to work tomorrow, so I more than likely will not be able to blog tomorrow. *tear* So much for wanting to complete BEDA. I knew it was going to be an almost impossible feat for me to complete. At least I tried!!! I can at least keep my promise that I made about blogging ever day that I am on the computer.

Other than that I have just been watching The IT Crowd, and I started to watch Bleach (The Japanese version. I watched one episode of the English version, and hated the voice overs.)

Well I have to wrap this up. I'm about to go hang out with my friend Nicole. I need it!!!

Monday, April 6, 2009


...Is Monday. Nothing interesting ever happens on a Monday. At least not till this very day.

Well it depends on if I don't get caught.

My brother told me that I was to leave the computer alone. Well considering I am making this blog post, I am disobeying his wishes. I already had a mind set that I needed to be online...at least on Facebook.

See I was going to tell the guy I like that I liked him yesterday, but I flaked out. So I decided in my mind that I'd at least tell him in a chat. I know that is very cowardly of myself, but I'm too afraid to get rejected face to face. I guess it's just the security of never having to show defeat or emotion in front of the other party.

That has always bothered me though. I have always wondered why I let emotions get the better of me. I should be able to say, "Okay" and get over it, but emotions always mess it up. I have always considered emotions to be signs of weakness. I used to be so good at hiding when things bothered me, and no one would ever think twice. I've been rejected so much in the past, that I had just gotten used to it. But it wasn't until a few years ago that I had gotten so over whelmed, that I just started crying one morning at school, and I couldn't stop at all that day. I guess it was 17 years of bottled up emotion making it's way out of me. Ever since then It's been really hard for me to keep any emotion from showing.

I'm still trying to get used to it, but how do you get used to disappointment?

Has anyone felt like that? Emotions are such fickled fiends!!!

Well wish me luck telling this guy I like him.

I need all the luck I can get.

Everyone have a great day!!!

Best Wishes

PS Someone left me a comment somewhere on my blog. Something about the person having a long distant relationship, and I approved it, but I can't find the post it was on...at least I think I approved it.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Spring Is In The Air

..and I'm choking to death on it. Just kidding. lol. Just thought I'd use some of a lyric from one of my favorite bands Love You To Death (The actual lyric goes "Love is in the air and I'm choking to death on it)

Anyway it's day five of the BEDA. So far I'm in the clear of at least completing a week without missing a day. lol. *Thank goodness for Pickens County being on Spring break!*
After next Sunday, I'm not sure how things will go down.

I always love going to Church. Sunday's are one of my favorite days of the week. It's not only because I get to go to church, but I also get to dive into the word, and I get to see some of my closest friends. Great day so far.

It's such a beautiful day outside. I was happy that it was warm enough to go without a jacket.

So I'm in sort of a pickle so to speak. I like this guy, and I really want to tell him I like him...but I don't want to because it's so close to me going to Awanita. I don't want to doom any relationship, whether it be just friends or we actually start dating. I don't know. I've never been good with all this relationship stuff.

My friend Briana (Or Bippy) asked me if I wanted to hang out sometime this week. She's in Virgina right now for a Band trip. I haven't seen her in months. I miss that girl. We get confused for relatives so much. it's funny. She's awesome, and she's quite a fantastic guard girl!!! With her colorguard skills, she decreases world suck by a bunch!!!

I really have nothing to write about. I just wanted to keep up with the BEDA!!!

Best Wishes

Saturday, April 4, 2009

A Borrowed Post

I am calling this blog a borrowed post for this reason. I did this thing on facebook a few months ago where you list twenty Five random things about yourself. The only thing was, the facts were not really random, and anyone who knew me knew all those facts. That and it was also really rushed, and I didn't think it out. I decided for BEDA that I would completely redo the entire list, and make it to where if my best friend read it, they(I have two best friends Kathryn, and Clint) would have no clue about any of it. So here it is version 2.0 new and improved 25 random facts about myself.

1.) Here's The extent of my music fandom...If a song starts playing, more than likely I can name the band and the song title within the first measure of the music.

2.) Since I was little, I liked to learn the dance moves of music videos. I still do actually. I know the entire dance to The Pussycat Doll's "When I Grow Up." and half of "Single Ladies" by Beyonce. lol

3.) If I could be in any genre specific band, I'd so be in a Ska band!!!

4.) I do not go anywhere with out my zune, and almost anywhere without my camera.

5.) I collect quotes. All kinds. If you know of any good ones, send them my way.

6.) I only talk on the phone when I absolutely have to. If I had a cell phone, it'd mostly be used for text.

7.) I've always wanted to be on a roller derby team. I'm hoping to join one next year when I'm actually of age.

8.) I'd rather dance in front of a crowd then ever make a speech.

9.) I think my room is only ever clean for one week in a year. haha

10.) Most people like to eat, but I hate myself when I eat.

11.) I listen way better when I have a ear bud in one ear then without it. Don't ask me why.

12.) I am the easiest person to get with the phrase "That's what she said." I just don't know what I say until I say it.

13.) I love Cover songs by The Reel Big Fish. I like all songs by them actually.

14.) I'm boy challenged. I've only had one boyfriend, and when I tell someone I like them They normally only see me as either one of the guys, or just a friend.

15.) I want to be a koala Walla Woo Loo! No Lie!!!

16.) I like taking pictures of weird random things. Weird signs, weird plants, weird people. Anything really.

17.) I don't like wearing my hair up because I'm afraid of being mistaken for a guy. That's why I'll never have hair shorter than my shoulders ever again.

18.) I'd much rather receive an actual letter than an email. Makes things more exciting.

19.) I've never been on a plane and the only kinds of boats I've ever been on were paddle boats and kayaks.

20.) I prefer homemade or really abstract gifts over anything bought. That being said...I could probably start a lotion, and beauty shop with all the stuff like that I get. I never use it because it smells to strong.

21.) My favorite thing in my room is a glass chicken my best friend Clint and his family got me for my 19th birthday.

22.) I think the only time I'm not listening to music is during church, or when I'm at other people's houses. Other than that I always have it playing.

23.) My two years in marching band were by far the best years of my life.

24.) I wish I was shorter because I love wearing high heel boots.

25.) Dolphins are my favorite water animals, Horses are my favorite land animals, and my favorite air animals are bats. The only reason why is because I found a baby bat while cleaning a bath tub at Awanita and it was so adorable, and helpless. I named it Blinky. I wish myself and Zack could keep it, but everyone thought it was weird...so we had to let it go. :(

Well that's it. I hope it helped you get inside my mind a bit more.

I'm off to go record a video...maybe. Depends on what I feel like.