I guess you could say I'm confused...

Um YEAH!!!!

I've never been so confused in my life.

And I'm going to go ahead and tell you that it has to do with Guys.

Of course I end up liking more than one person at one time.

But here's the kicker...I think they may like me back.

I'm super confused. I don't want to say any more that they are all totally different. They all appeal to a certain side of my personality that the other can't quite reach. And that One of the I've like since I was 13 or 14(Stupid Junior High/High school crush), One I've liked for a little over two years now, and the last I've only just recently met about 4 weeks ago, but for some reason I've felt like I've connected with, and feel comfortable around him.

I don't know what to do. The one I've liked forever I don't want to date just because I know he isn't really boyfriend Material. The one I've liked ofr about two years, I'm afraid to tell. I'm afraid of ruining a friendship, and I see him quite often so that would just make it awkward if he ended up not liking me. And the guy I just met...well let's just say, he isn't weirded out or freaked out about me being a touchy feely person(i.e. resting my arm on his leg or his Shoulder) I even told him that I was sorry about that cause I tend to do that and if it bothered him for him to tell me to stop, but he said that he didn't mind. I don't want to say to much more, just in case he reads this or finds it.

On the other hand I really shouldn't post this, but I just had to get it off my chest, because if I don't I just feel like I won't be able to sleep tonight!

Other than that, I just got done recording show #4 for thenewrock.com podcast!!! I think this week was way better. We still are learning things, and still working the kinks, but we are starting to find our stride. It's a fun project, and I'm grateful that I'm able to be a part of it. It's something that I've been wanting to do, but been to scared to do so.

My life as of right now!!!

So I haven't posted a blog in a week or so. I have just been busy...well to my standards at least.

I have just been searching for independent bands that I can play on my radio show. I thought that everyone I send an email to would reject me like that, but I've had a lot of bands allow me to play their music on my show. I'm excited, because it means that I can do what I wanted to do with it in the first place. One, I can find new music that I can enjoy, and two I can promote those bands that I think deserve to get their name out there. I just feel like this project was meant to happen, maybe as a sign to what I should do with my life.

Something has happened lately. I am now also a part of a podcast at Thenewrock.com. I was originally just a contributor, but one of the guys that was co-host has not shown the past two weeks, Jason had to make a decision and he asked me if I wanted to be co-host. He figures why not because I am passionate about music and I know a lot about rock music. I'm just excited that all of this has happened in such a short amount of time.

To be quite honest, I've been looking at podcasting for a while, and before that I've wanted to do something with radio. I mean in 7th or 8th grade, I saw this thing in a Toys-R-Us paper where you could have a radio brodcast within 50 yards of where you were. I wanted it so bad!!! I even have a paper of podcasting sites, and a list of equipment that I could get for cheap. So it must be destiny that all this stuff has happened.

It gets even better.

Jason told me that we might even get to interview bands, because he has conncetions. He told me to get ready cause we might get big! I'm excited like ten fold!!!

I'm just so excited to see what God has planned for me next.

Well, I have to go research for tonight. We are recording show 3 of the podcast. So listen out for it Tomorrow!

So what's been going on in my world lately.

So I haven't posted a blog in a few weeks, so I thought I might want to catch you all up with what's going on.

I went to Awanita this past Monday-Wednesday to help paint the bathrooms in the staff house. they really needed it because the ceilings were yellow colored, and the walls just were that great of a color, so I went to go help Angie. Considering what I would be doing if I was at home, it was pretty fun. I love to paint, so it was not work to me.

I recently started a radio show on blogtalkradio.com I find it to be really fun. I've already recorded two shows, and had a pretty good crowd. I had 11 live listeners on my first show(Considering I didn't tell a soul I was doing it, that's not a bad turnout.), and 13 live listeners my second show. They leave an archive of the show, so if you missed it you can go and listen to it, or you can download it and take with you. I think I have found my calling. I find it to be very fun, and I get to do what I love to do, and that is listening to music. Not only that I get to promote those bands that I love!!! I love being on street teams for bands because it's a way to get word out on bands, but i think this is way better! Want to go listen to my shows? Just go to blogtalkradio.com/bandgirlcg and just press play on either archived show. Or you could just tune in every Thursday at 6pm est, and listen to me live.

Seven

Recommended by my pal Harrison
"The Chelak"

7 things I can do
1. Think
2. Dance
3. Make chocolate covered pretzels
4. Take Photos
5. film awkward moments
6. cause awkward moments
7. write

7 things I can't do
1. Sing on tune by myself
2. clean my room
3. be interesting
4. control myself
5. hold a grudge
6. stop thinking
7. think of comebacks immediately

7 things I can't live without
1. Music
2. Colorguard
3. Camp Awanita
4. Writing
5. Friends
6. My camera
7. My Zune

7 people who mean a lot to me
1. Kathryn
2. Clint
3. My mom
4. Matt H.
5. Bippy
6. Symon
7. Angie

7 web personalities I like
1. LiveLavaLive
2. Boh3m3
3. Sarah Lane
4. Martin Sargent
5. Brookers
6. Sunshine Taylor
7. Kevin Rose

7 Websites I visit everyday
1. Myspace.com
2. Facebook.com
3. Cultvault.org
4. Twitter.com
5. Deviantart.com
6. Blogtalkradio.com
7. Gaiaonline.com

7 bands I love
1. Linkin Park
2. Love You To Death(A.K.A. The Pettit Project)
3. Oh Hush!
4. Skye Sweetnam
5. Weezer
6. Of Montreal
7. Coheed & Cambria
(Even though I love a lot more bands, this is all I can list.


Thanks again to Harrison for recommending this little project to do.
I needed something for the boredom.

Reviews: Twilight And PopSiren

It's been a long while since I last posted a blog, and I think I've gone on long enough not posting.

So recently I've been reading Twilight. Now before you go all, "Oh My Gosh, I can't believe you are going to be one of those mindless drones that think that Edward is like the best thing since sliced bread." For one I've been wanting to read the book since about two or so years, but I could never check out the books because they were never checked in or they were being held when I went in(i only go to the library once a month.) Two: Don't think I'm just now a fan of Vampire's because Edward is. I've been a Vampire Freak for many many years now...I can blame my dad for that. Dracula was one of his favorite movies, and it became one of my favorite one's too.
Anyway I'm getting away with my little rant.
I read Twilight and just finished New Moon this morning. I think the books are wonderful. It's been a while since I've found a book that I can actually finish and not be bored with it from start to finished. I liked Twilight so much that I read it twice in one week. That says a lot coming from my mouth. I do recommend this book for anyone who's a fan of Vampires(Though if you are one of those crazed Vamp enthusiasts, then you will not like the fact that a lot of the vampire myths that have been shown in many movies and comic books, are just that myths.), Romance, A little bit of violence, drama, and a little bit of mystery. This book will keep you wanting to read just to find out what happens next. It is a true page turner and you will not want to put it down. Stephenie Meyer did an excellent job with Twilight and New Moon, and I'm excited to read the final two books in the series as well as her book "The Host"

Now I also stumbled across a little web show today called Pop Siren. I like it very much. Sarah lane, who used to be on various shows on Tech TV host it and talks about pop culture with a techy twist. If you want to hear about news not shown on tv, or music you probably will never hear about on MTV, then it's the perfect web show for you. A new episode premieres every Thursday at 3 pm est. and noon pst with daily pop siren bites through out the week. I recommend it for any tech/internet savvy female that want more insight on the internet world. Visit PopSiren.com to watch past episodes and look out for new episodes.

I know this was more of a review blog than a about my life blog. I might end up making a review blog in the future, but for now, this will do.

Other than that, there really isn't nothing new in my life, and I don't feel like dwelling in on what is happening at the moment, so I am leveing you now with some words of wisdom...


"If...the machine of government...is of such a nature that it requires you to be the agent of injustice to another, then, I say, break the law." -Henry David Thoreau

I'm a do the things that I want to do!

So I'm actually supposed to be banned from the computer...But my brother forgot to log out of his name. So I guess I get a chance to do what I need to.

Anyways. I went to the Easley/Wren game last night. Easley lost badly, but I had a blast!!! I love having so many friends that love to just let loose and have fun. It's rare to find people like that and I'm fortunate enough to have found such awesome friends. I was hoping to see two friend in particular, Katelyn and Savannah. I worked with them up at Awanita, and they go to Wren. I wasn't sure if they even went to the game or if they are Volunteering up at the camp.

Steve and Shannon are leaving for Illinois Monday and I'm sad about it because I won't get to say good-bye, but I always will be intouch with them.

Tuesday I'm going to the 12th annual 93.3 Birthday Bash. Now I'd be really excited about it if Avenged Sevenfold were gonna be there, but they cancelled all their Fall Shows because of the lead singers voice. It makes me sad because that was the main reason why Lauren, Ben and myself were going. Well we are still going because Luaren couldn't find anyone to buy our tickets. I still plan on having fun.

Well I'm going to go. I have pictures and videos to post.

peace out homies!!!

I guess things can be too good to be true

So Shannon sent me a message today saying that her and Steve are going to be selling the car for 1200 which I don't have. I have yet to get a job and I don't have my license, so it would pretty much be wrong for me to say that I'm interested. Oh Well When the time comes for me to get a car I will know for sure, and hopefully I'll have a job and my license.


I saw Elizabeth(Another really cool person I worked with this summer) at church Yesterday. I was ecstatic. I missed her a lot. I really need to visit her and others up at North Greenville. I have a lot of friends that go to that school. I wanted to go there, but I just want to go to Film school. oh well.


That's pretty much it for now.

I...

Still hate the fact that Steve and Shannon are moving away. I mean they were cool people and really nice and Godly people. They have taught me a lot this summer and I'm not the only one. But I guess I can't be selfish because Steve felt like Illinois was where God was sending him, and you just can't fight feelings from God now can you?


I'm excited though. Tonight The Easley Marching Band are having a preview show, and I'm excited to see the show. Unlike last year I'm not as involved as I was. Which I think I really need. For me to be able to move on I need to cut loose some strings that were holding me back.

Now I'm not saying that I'm being held back from my friends, HECK NO!!! They if anything are helping me go forward. It's just being at every practice just held me back from forwarding my future.

I'm gonna go get ready now before I start to dig a deeper hole...

Great Boobies Honeybun, My lower intestines is filled with Spam eggs spam bacon spam...

So my mom got me a hotdog from Skins(Not as good as Mrs. Glenda's Hotdogs...Those are scrumptious) Anyways. The chili or the hot dog itself tasted like spam...And for some reason it reminded me of this Monty Python skit!!!! I love Monty Python. I hope you enjoi

AHHH!!!

I'm so frazzled so to speak. I have a chance of getting a car for a $1000, but I only have 3 weeks to get a job and get just enough to be able to pull it out of my bank account. Now if I were to get this car, there would be the whole issue of what I'm going to do with it? I obviously can't drive it back to Easley,(The car belongs to Steve and Shannon, who are Staff Parents up at Awanita. They are moving to Illinois in three weeks and are thinking about selling to car to get gas money.) because I do not have my license. I could ask them if I could just leave it in the lower parking lot for the staff house until I am legally able to drive it home. Or I could get Colby to drive it back home for me, and have my mom drive him back up to Awanita. anyways. I'd also have to get insurance, a license plate, and who knows whatelse before I am able to drive the car. I just need a lot of prayer from everyone. I know I was meant to hear about that car because me going up to Awanita this past weekend was completely random and really last minute. I already have just under a thousand in my bank account and it won't take much for me to get over that mark. I don't know. whatever happens happens, I'm just hoping thngs work out for the best!!!

Unwanted week

This week was one of those weeks you wish never happened.
My mom's Boyfriend's brother, Ronnie, passed away Wednesday morning.
I mean we saw it coming, so it wasn't as big of a shock, but it still was devastating.
He wasn't family to me, but he was like it. Rickey(My mom's boyfriend) and his Family always made me and my bro feel welcome. My Dad's side of the family never made us feel welcome one bit! I find that funny.

Anyways off of the depressing stuff.

I saw a friend of mine Wednesday I haven't seen since May. She goes to Clemson and dates someone who goes to my church. She is now a member of my church when she goes to Clemson, anywhos when she finish her semester there she went to Virginia to stay with her dad(Her mom lives in Spartanburg but they-'re still together...long story), and then in around June 18 she went to Europe. well I moved into Awanita June 5 so if she came back to Spartanburg and visited at my church then I wouldn't have been able to see her. And when she got back she had to move into Clemson because she's an RA this year so there was another month of me not seeing her. So I was excited to see her. We were in the middle of playing a song and I saw her and dropped my mallets. It was quite funny.


Anyways, nothing else excited happened this week...well for me anyways.


Peace

My reflections on my experience at Awanita

Camp Awanita was by far one of the most ... interesting experiences to date. A lot happened to me while I was there and every that happened either shocked me or threw me for a loop. I am going to say that working there was no small feat. It was tough work. I though somedays that I wasn't going to be able to take anymore of it and that I wanted to go home right that instance. Somedays I was excited to work and ended up emotionally drained. At the ropes course, we sometimes had really awesome groups that I ended up have a great time instructing them through each little obsticle, and other groups made me want to rip my ears off and gouge my eyeballs out of it's socket. When it came time to clean lodges, I was ready to get it over with because the sooner it was done, the sooner we had break, but I was still wanted the work to be close to perfect so I wouldn't have to go back later to go over something.

Every week or week-end we'd have what we call Workcrew come up and help with that camp. Some of the workcrew were awesome and I love them to death...Others I could care less if I ever see them again. One group of girls in particular. All they ever did was whine, complain, and scream. My gosh they would scream...and over the stupidest stuff. Like one girl screamed over mop water hitting her shoe... it wouldn't have bothered me if I wasn't put in charge that one day. I don't know maybe I'm not cut out to be put in charge...ever!!!

The people I got to work with on the summer staff are some of the coolest people ever!!! There were a few that I couldn't stand, and almost...almost gave them a piece of my mind that shouldn't be revealed at a Christian camp... We were constantly around each other. living 24/7 around people you never would imagine talking to for two months make you rethink how you view people. I made friends with people in my world I would never talk to, and they turned out to be some of the people I loved the most! I got really close witha few people in particular

Awanita has so many memories. I never thought that anything would ever top my marching band experience, but Awanita ties with it. Maybe with my volunteering in November, Workcrew weekend, and going back as summer staff again next summer will possibly push it way over my band years. Who knows? I can't wait to go back, and I can't wait to call it my home again.